Day One

Actually it’s more like day two.  Considering the circumstances, probably more like day 60.  Welcome to my blog.  I am the rocketegg.  Rocketegg is pretty much a meaningless name I came up with years ago when I had to choose a handle to dial into errols internet.  That was a time in my life when the internet was just budding and my interests were focused intently on Diablo and finding a girlfriend.  To give you an idea of my particular brand of uncool, those two things ended up being one solution for me.

Fast forward 12 years or so.  I majored in computer science in undergrad, worked in the software industry for a few years, decided I could “do more” and decided to go to law school.  My reasons for wanting to do so were inarticulate, or maybe just too varied to provide any coherent guidance.  When people asked, I explained that I wanted to broaden my studies, dabble in multiple fields, challenge myself intellectually, and so on.  In truth, the reasons I went to law school were probably more selfish and less honorable than that.  It seemed that all the smart people from my undergrad who had majored in some form of engineering went to a good law school, whereupon graduation they would be handed a fat salary and gobs of prestige, while the remainder of us lived unsatisfying, droll little lives fixing software bugs.  Meanwhile, my dad had raised us with tales of how his father was an important man, a senator in China, who drove a car when probably had never even seen one.  My grandfather, according to my dad, was an honest man, a rarity among politicians whose duty was to call out unethical behavior within his political party.  Naturally, this created enemies along the way who eventually besmirched my grandfather’s reputation and removed him from his position of power.  I loved this tale, romanticized our family being restored to its proper place (albeit in a different country), and law school seemed like the right avenue for the pursuit.  In any case, these two factors worked in conjunction to lead me to law school.

Fast forward another 4 years.  I lived and breathed law school, honestly putting my all into my studies.  It paid off, and I was able to land a job as an associate at one of our country’s top law firms.  It sucked.  There are many things wrong about the law firm model, which I won’t go into.  Suffice it to say that it’s not the right path for me.  Out of my reasons for going to law school, however varied and regardless of the drive it gave me, never included actually wanting to be a lawyer.  It’s perhaps a bit funny to have missed that big point, but at the time my sights were tinted by the allure of the salary and position that our society affords lawyers.  Today is day two of the next step in my career.  I left my law firm last Friday to start (for the second time) my career as a software engineer.  Honestly, I don’t know if I made a mistake.  Perhaps I’m putting too much value on the short term benefits of being a software engineer and too little value on the long term benefits of being a lawyer.  I can’t say.  What I can say is that I’ve been at peace with my decision, and once again I’m genuinely excited about what the future has in store.

That’s the reason for writing this blog.  I don’t know if my story will resonate with anyone.  However, I do know of many unhappy lawyers who would do something else if they could.  My encouragement is to step out, take a leap of faith, and see what destiny has in store.  My parents did that years ago, made mistakes along the way, but by the grace of God landed on their feet.  It’s my hope, and more than I can ask really, to simply do the same.

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